Not Including Today = 17 Days Away

Prom is only 17 days away, not like I'm counting or anything.... Everyday I'm reminded about it, girls are getting asked out in super cute ways left and right.  Ever since I was young and saw my cousin get asked out to prom by thousands of twinkly lights on the roof of her neighbors house spelling out that so important question that is asked with only one word, Prom? She had the fairy tale, she grew up next to her neighbor all her life, a boy named Derek, ever since they were little they couldn't be apart, I was always young when they where friends and got so confused  and thinking he was my cousin since he came to Thanksgiving every year.  Anyway they could never be separated, best of friends, until their senior year rolled around, it was pretty obvious when I got older that Derek was in love with my cousin and she felt the same way, but both were to shy to act.  I still remember that Wednesday all those years ago when he came by my house asking my parents for any spare lights, he let me in on his plan and asked if I wanted to help, he was always so nice even though he was like 10 years older than me, never treated me like a little kid. On Thursday right after school I went over and helped him with the lights, untangling and checking the bulbs, little kid type work. My aunt had my cousin out of the house all day and covered all the windows when they got home so it would be a total surprised Friday night.  Friday finally came and all my relatives crammed inside the house waiting to see her reaction.  Derek took her to her favorite Greek restaurant  then gave her a ride  home.  When they pulled into the cul-de-sac my dad turned on the lights.  Little balls of magic spelling out those four important letters.  She covered her mouth in shock and gave him a huge. From that night on they would never be just friends.  They went off to college holding each other close and got married the summer after they graduated. They just had a baby girl not to long ago, it was such a fairytale to me when I was little, and still is.
I always wanted to get asked like that, I think every girl does. Getting your attractive best friend to confess his love to you and living happily ever after. But I never had a friend like that, I never had a friend all my life let alone a friend who was a boy for all my life.  Prom is, like I said, 17 days away and every time I see a girl get asked out in a cute way and her dreams coming true I'm so happy for her I really am, I'm not one to get jealous when someone else finds love and I'm still in the search. But every time I see it I always think of Derek and the smile he had on his face all through the five hours of tedious light stringing. I want someone to care enough to put that much effort into asking me, but I cant even think of anyone I would want to do that for me. I don't like anyone in school right now, none of my guy friends are the kind I want to go to prom with. There nice, not all of them are as easy on the eyes as others, but we just don't have that kind of relationship. Going with any of them would split my guy friends into a group of two, the ones who liked me before we went would just try harder to get me to date them, and the others that don't really have feelings for me would just assume that I had feelings for them and that's why I asked them to go with me. At this point I need a nobody, someone I don't know and who doesn't know me, someone random who doesn't go to my school, but isn't a total creeper. Just some random guy I wouldn't worry about flirting with because if it didn't work out I wouldn't have to worry about seeing him in the hallways, just someone to make the night fun and to make me laugh. That really is the only kind of guy I want to go to my Senior prom with, a nobody, and if I can't (which I most likely wont) I think I will just go alone, with a group of my girlfriends, who know how to make me laugh and wouldn't care about acting stupid next to me.

An Affair To Remember....

           Where I live they have this thing called the Cinderella Affair.  This event is held every year around prom, its the orphanage of prom dresses.  Girls all over the District go there in search of a dream dress. Whats so nice about this event is that you go in get a free dress, shoes, and accessories. My friends and I went in hopes we could find a free dream dress. Last year I went I found a dress I wasn't so crazy about but this year I found a dress I like a lot. But I didn't feel like it was a prom dress. The event was on Friday and I choose this dress.

     On Saturday I decided I wanted to spend the entire day in the dress, just wear it around the house for a little bit, dance around in it and just feel how different it was. I never dreamed I would get a dress that had beige and black fabric over lapping, black, dark colors are just not really me. Navy blue is the darkest I like in a formal dress.The flower print, just seemed like a no. But for some reason when I tried it on it was different, and I couldn't tell if it was a good thing or not. Like I said on Saturday I wore the dress, I put it on and took it off wearing it for about five minutes at a time. Everyone in my family loved it but I still felt weird. I went back to my room and sat on the floor in my prom dress just looking at my reflection in my full length mirror. For some reason it just clicked in my head, I watched Sleeping Beauty and for some reason the peasant dress she wears in the middle of the movie reminded me of my dress. They are extremely different I know but for some reason I just felt they were the same. At that moment wearing a dress my favorite Disney princess wore I fell in love.

I think its the fact that this dress has beige and black on it the same as my dress. just the colors make it click in my mind for some reason.

** On my Prom Possibilities page I have a bunch more pictures of the dress, just scroll to the bottom of the page. :)**