its so sad but amazingly true, I finally got hugged by a guy not as a friend, kind of in an im sorry way but still that’s good enough for me, for the time being it is.
im so happy and sitting here typing this i feel so stupid sharing with the world that I have never been hugged before today but still I cant stop smiling. I will type the whole story most likely tomorrow.
I'm so happy! I never thought this would happen it may not be a kiss or being asked out but at least its something.
how it happened:
so we were in class ( summer school of course) and I was sitting at my desk trying to figure out the worksheet our teacher past out to us, that I SO didn’t understand but still tried to read through it. when I finally decided that enough was enough I needed help I asked my friend if she understood and she said “no not really.” so I asked the guy across from me and he said he did but he wanted to finish before he explained it to anyone. ( real nice guy, I know) so as I sat waited for him to finish my “summer school buddy” went to sharpen his pencil and my friend saw me look up, but in my defense a pencil sharpener is loud so was it really that strange that I looked up? well to her it was, so as the loud mouth she is she said with impressive volume ” awww look at you, checking out the summer selection.” her friend a.k.a the “gentlemen” who wouldn’t help me looked over at the subject of her remark and added ” ah ha, so that’s your boyfriend then huh?” which of course I defended myself with a “no, no I don’t have a boyfriend.” with a head shack to match my tone. which apparently wasn’t very convincing seeing as how he decided to say it louder as my “summer school buddy” pasted by once again but this time he didn't go to his seat, he went to the trash can by our table. I whispered to the “gentlemen” “stop it, I don't have a boyfriend, therefore he is not my boyfriend.” he just shock his head and began doing his work again. I was hoping we would all do the same. pretend to forget the conversation and just do our work, I hoped he didn't hear the conversation and think that I liked him, I didn't like him…… I couldn’t. instead of heading back to his desk my “summer school buddy” came over next to me and kneeled down “do you need help? do you get it?” still a little shocked that he actually kneeled down next to me I managed to say "um no not really, its pretty confusing.” “well what you have to remember about tr-” he started explained until the “gentlemen” butted in to say “I was going to explain it to her after I finished my packet, I only have about 5 problems left.” sure, now he decides to be helpful? “oh cool, well good luck you’ll get this stuff after a while, once it clicks it clicks.” "thanks” and with a smile he got up from his knees, I thought he would be gone until break but instead he gave me a hug, not an I like you hug or anything just a good old fashion you can do it hug…………right?
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