Freshman year of high school I walked down the hall to my final class of the day, English. I sat down in my assigned seat next to my friend Alan and a bunch of new faces. I looked back and this guy with short blond hair that was a total tooth pick and turned back to listen to the teacher. Near the end of class we had to turn in the assignment she gave us, a book scavenger hunt, I couldn't find the last question so I turned around to the toothpick boy and asked him what the answer was. His fat friend across from him told me "Can't you see were talking here? God." I just turned around clearly these aren't the kind of class helpers but then the toothpick boy spoke up. "Wow Rick that's so messed up she just asked a question." Two things from his response have stuck with me to this day.
1. Rick you will forever be on my Punch In The Face List and
2. That was one of the nicest things a guy has ever done for me.
The next week we moved seats and sure enough toothpick sat right in front of me. Quickly I found out he was a jokester, which is bad because I fall so easy for an attractive face with humor. He would constantly turn around to talk to me every time the teacher turned her back trying to make me laugh in a class that was so dull. Soon I found out his name was Wes and he was really sweet. Since we talked all the time and laughed rumors spread like butter on hot toast that we were dating. We both had our share but I'm extremely defensive so it was easier for people to get me mad. After a couple of months I started getting really confused about my feelings, til this day I still don't know if I liked him or I thought I did because everyone said so. The rest of Freshman year in that English class was pure hell because I told one friend that I thought I liked him and she told everyone in the entire class, including Wes. Ever since then he never looked at me the same, its not like I really blame him he didn't want to lead on the geeky girl who was madly in love with him, even though I don't think I did!! Every year we some how bumped into each other and it was awkward every time because he tried to be nice but I was still mad that he thought I liked him, I guess I was so mad because I felt like he knew me so well that he should have known that I get confused easily and didn't actually like him. Fast forward to now, senior year of high school right before the Coronation dance, and one of my "best friends" likes Wes. I don't want people to think I'm still sour towards him because I don't want to bring up the past anymore but I don't like that she likes him. Its not because I like him its just because.......I really don't know. Selena asked him to the dance, and of course he said yes to that pretty Latino face of hers. But not only that, to top it off there officially dating which is.....great. Selena will never understand, she never was the kind of friend to really understand feelings but I guess I'll have to slap on my fake Miss. America smile and let them think I'm ok with them dating. I know its impossible to turn back time, but if I could turn the clock back just once I wouldn't replace my moms vase I smashed while moon walking in the sixth grade or fix fights with friends, I would turn it back to that Freshman English class and tell a naive little blond girl to talk it out with her best guy friend, because losing that toothpick will be one of the biggest regrets she'll ever have.
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